As I get closer to my "goal", I am beginning to absolutely love the way I look. As of today I still have 30lbs till I reach that magic number, but I honestly don't know if I'll go that low. When I look in the mirror, I still see small areas that need to be slimmed a little and toned, but I don't know if I WANT to lose another 30lbs. I definitely want to be healthy, but not skinny! The collar bones I once loved being able to see now look funny to me. I don't want to have bones sticking out everywhere. In my very humble opinion being super skinny is not sexy (plus my hubby doesn't like it). I think I have decided to work on improving my overall health and not focus so much on the weight loss. I will still weigh in weekly, but my main focus will be pushing my body to it's physical limits. I really want to get into shape so that I can run at least 3 miles without stopping and feeling like I am going to pass out.
I love writing this blog. Just actually typing the words have helped me to make up my mind. I am going to focus on being healthy and if I lose more great, if I don't, I'll survive!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Well I thought my body was getting accustomed to my new found love of running, but I found out today I was wrong. Yesterday I worked out for 35 minutes on the elliptical before my run on the treadmill and I felt great! So great I ran for 17 min instead of just 15. I woke up this morning feeling great so I just knew my body had adjusted to the running..... WRONG! I get on the treadmill and do my three minutes of walking to warm-up (I start a 3mph and increase the speed every 30 sec), once I hit the three minute mark I increase to my run speed (5mph). The first couple of minutes feel fine and I start getting excited. Then out of nowhere BAM! I feel like I am going to die! I wanted so badly to stop and just walk. The only thing that kept me going was sheer determination, and the fact that there was this skinny chick running behind me. If she can do it, so can I! j/k Seriously though, I love running. I'm tired of my body telling me I can't do it! So I pushed through the fatigue and did the full 17 minutes, slowed back down to 3mph for 2min to catch my breathe, then increased my walking speed to 3.8mph to finish my cardio. Though it sucks that the run was sooooo much harder than yesterday, it still felt amazing to finish. I will get good enough to run a 5k if its the last thing I do.